Its been time...

Basic jist of the past few months of my life.

I'm in love with John Freeman.

He makes me smile and he makes me very happy.

I start work tomorrow at RBS.

I'm going to university in Lancashire in september.

I go to Chicago in just over a month.

I love my life.

I CAN DRIVE.

Broom broom

This is a sexy sexy time for me.

3 days of none stop driving. WOWWW

i'm sleepy.

Got chased by a car full of chavs flashing their lights at me earlier, getting up my arse

they would not leave me alone..Threw a fucking bottle at my car...finally pulled into mayflower pub car park

About 5 of my guy mates waiting there.

They followed me into the car park then fucked off scared the bitches.

Bad times.

NIGHT!

xo

I don't know if anyone reads this thing.
Nor do i care.
But i'm putting everything i have on hoping tomorrow goes well.
I don't want another failure.

Clubbing tonight.

With my John boy.

Can't wait.

Aishteru

Baby's black balloon makes her fly

I almost fell into that hole in your life

And you're not thinking about tomorrow

'Cause you were the same as me

But on your knees

A thousand other boys could never reach you

How could I have been the one

I saw the world spin beneath you

And scatter like ice from the spoon

That was your womb

Comin' down the world turned over

And angels fall without you there

And I go on as you get colder

Or are you someone's prayer

You know the lies they always told you

And the love you never knew

What's the things they never showed you

That swallowed the light from the sun

Inside your room

Comin' down the world turned over

And angels fall without you there

And I'll go on to bring you home

All because I'm

All because I'm

And I'll become

What you became to me

I still think about you everyday.

You've got a lot to say
for the one that walked away.
I give you take,
its the way it's always been

oh how do i know
if i should stay or just go
the bottom line is this way that i'll never know

stay with me
stay with me

you got a lot to say
for the one that pushed me away
i give you take
some things they never change
just change

stay with me
stay with me

never know i could be this way
never know that i could walk away

these things take time to grow
it's been said that time heals wounds
but no, i won't be controlled
and so, this story goes

stay with me
stay with me

never know i could be this way
never know that i could walk away

I think i'm in love.